Bring Me Some Water

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one of the issues I fight with every day

is whether I have had enough water or not.

Maybe I need to feel more passionate about it,

love these ladies in this song,

and have had this bring me some water

playing over and over in my mind today.

I think my body is telling me something,

so off for another refill.

Tomorrow is weigh in day.

Thanks everyone for the links to good recipes

and thanks so much for the comments,

I hope you are all doing well,

Until next time,

Cinner

Update,MISS you

we have been having the best weather.

the perfect fall days better than our summer for sure.it

we have an 11 hoyr drive and it is supposed to be 31,

we have had a busy week. one of my cousins and her son

had to come and see about him havingn a plate removed in his foot.

the poor fellow it can not  make it any worse

but maybe a chance for an improvement.

do off to bed, early to rise.

I will touch base as soon as the move is done.

be well my friends and remember to visit the other blog about the giveaway.

you must leave a comment and be a follower.

Have your best days

Enjoy Cinner.

So I had a Friend Call Me On It....

Recently I had a talk with one of my really good friends

and we were discussing how I usually say to

Have Your Best Day Ever.

She said I call Bullshite on that one.

Me batting my eyes at her, Why Whatever Do You Mean?

She said there is no way you can have your Best Day Ever Every Day.

I have thought a lot about this and I think because I have years that 

I refer to as The Lost Years, age 39 until about 44.

I had developed the Severe Cataplexy, more info in the page above.

At its very worst I could not stand up without falling down.

This was triggered from any kind of emotion,

Now I want to tell you that when these episodes happen

I am aware of everything around me, I can hear,

I just can not respond or move for a few minutes. Then I would

try to get up and it would continue around the clock.

Luckily there are medications that help to control this,

you just have to find the right combination and

that was worse than the Cataplexy until we found the right

combination of medicines.

What I learned from that time in my life

was that Every Day Matters, it might not be a good one when I would wake up,

but if I went around thinking oh man I feel horrible, well then that was

all I was going to feel. I would wake up and I would think okay I have

energy right now and I would take advantage of it because

I knew that in about an hour there would not be any, so I had to live in the

present moment and that is how I live and hopefully will always live.

Do I have down days, Occasionally sure just like everyone.

But if I wake up feeling down or not well, and I walk around saying

Oh man it is gonna be a shitey day today, well then I really am not

setting myself up for many options or opportunities.

I know this One never knows what Life May Throw At You,

I don't have it in me to duck and hide from Life,

Do I have perfect days, sure but my perfect is not the same

as what you would describe as perfect nor should it be.

But my Best Day is living as best as I can that day.

To appreciate, to enjoy, to be optimistic, to be grateful, and to 

do my very best for that particular day.

Every day I wake up and I am as Old as I Have Ever Been,

but on the same day I am as Young as I will Ever Be,

So I do the best I can to do what I can for that day.

Do I have every day life obstacles that come my way,

Sure I do, Just Like Anyone Else, Do I have the perfect

relationship, No but what I have is genuine and I have

a lot of laughter now and I don';t have to worry as

much about controlling my emotions because

of my medications. I used to be a Workaholic, I am

nowhere near the same as I was, but I am so much better.

I understand what is important for me,

A coffee in the morning in my favorite cup,

music to either soothe my soul or to envigorate me.

Knowledge in knowing there is more to me than my work.

Trusting that no matter what things will work out as they will,

that all the worry in the world can not change the outcome,

that sometimes even if I don't understand now why things are a certain way.

I will one day., and that everything in my life that I have gone through

has brought me to my path that I am on now.

What was the worst day of my life,

I have had many bad days because of poor judgement on my part

especially when I was younger.

But my worst day was when I lost my Dad

because it was so unexpected.

Somehow you manage and you remember

things you had forgotten and though I can not see him

there has not been a day I have not felt him in my heart.

That is a beautiful thing, I have become very close to my

Mother, my Mother has become much more independant,

and she makes me laugh at all the new things she has had to face.

But she has done her best and your choices are pretty much this,

,Make it a good one!

................

Sorry I rambled on and on,

Just a reminder about the giveaway over at

Things About Who, What, When, Where and Why

I could not get the link to work today but it is on my Sidebar.

................

Hope You Are All Well,

Have Your Very Best Day Ever!

Take care,

Cinner

It Is Huge, You May Have to Scream!

So you know how we are all into exercises these days,

Well you just may want to run over to my other blog

Things About Who, What, When, Where and Why

as I am having a Giveaway.

The picture above is just a few items in my Giveaway.

The Giveaway is running from now until September 20th.

All you have to do is be a follower and leave a comment

.you may comment on every post, and as well if you

refer to my blog on your blog that gets your named

entered again.

So good luck to all.

...........

Things are fabulous here.

I am reading a new book that I just received yesterday.

The Lean Belly Prescription 

by Dr. Travis Stork. M, D.

Host of The Doctors.

I think it will be a good read.

One of his Laws of Leaness

states the following.

You make 200 weight related choices every day.

That's 200 chances to start a new life!

After reading this I could not help but think

that Every day is a gift and I get 200 chances to start my new life.

So you see if you get up and make a wrong choice you still have

199 right choices to make. Before I would be oh Geesh

well I wrecked today, so I will start tomorrow.

I  don't know but if the thought process is giving me

200 chances today, I am going to make some

pretty good ones.

So what's working for you today.

I would love to hear about it.

I am saddened by Hurricane Irene

and I am praying that you are all safe.

I know that some of you have families

out east and my prayers are with you and your families.

Until next time I hope you have

Your Very Best Day.

Cinner

In Bed by Nine

Hi Everyone, I hope you have had a great week.

I had a great visit with my friend, it feels like forever since she left,

although it has only been since Thursday.

Yesterday was my Anniversary,

12 years and even though we both had the flu,

we managed to still be in love.

He did admit he is more the complainer than I.

These are some of the changes we have noticed

since we married twelve years ago.

-we used to stay out until two now we are in bed by nine.

- he used to tell me I had nice breasts, now I tell him his are nice too.

lol that might be more info than you need.

- we used to dance all night, last night we had one.

We used to have no idea what the other one was up to.

Now we can complete each others sentences.

What has satayed(Stayed) the same is our 

sense of humor and that we are still each others best friend.

We accept each other as we are, it makes life pretty good.

...............

Tomorrow I am posting a Giveaway on my 

other blog listed on the sidebar.

I hope you stop by to  check it out.

In the meantime have

Your Very Best Day!

Cinner

Just Saying, Sometime You May Have to Run!

A picture taken in Victoria, B.C.

so tranquil, peaceful, beautiful.

I have been walking in the mornings

and I swear the area is inundated by dogs.

Almost every house in our area has dogs,

and I might add the odd one would sooner have you for breakfast

rather than to let you pass in what is considered his territory.

I was thinking this morning how peaceful it used to be

when I lived in the country and could go on walks,

where just maybe if you were lucky

you might encounter a deer.

So I continue to walk and take my life in my own hands.

I figure if I get chomped in the gl ass,

well just maybe I might lose some weight.

just saying,

and there is nothing like a feisty Rotti

running at you to really make you accelerate in the morning.

I try to show no fear, but I think the look of terror on my face

is enough of a giveaway.

It is not just the big dogs to be fearful of either,

the little ones are the worse nipping at your heels,

cursing at you as they go by.

My two laid back dogs looking at me as if they are saying,

What the heck was that.

So when we can we go off to the dog park,

there is something about dogs being off leash,

and it is a wonderful way to meet new people.

I have to go with my SIL

because I can not drive since I got Cataplexy.

My best friend has come for a visit

and is staying a few days...

She is the one whom hit a moose last year

and totaled her car.

She is now driving a Canary Yellow Bug

that she named Otis. we went for a drive last night

and I loved it. We sat up quite late and talked

about everything and anything, the funny thing

was how she taught herself to learn how to drive a standard.

Please watch next week for a giveaway on my other blog,

which is listed on the sidebar.

I won't be around the rest of the week,

hopefully I am out with my friend or you

can picture me on my morning walks

being chased by  dogs.

There is nothing like a brisk walk in the morning,

a dog running at you with teeth bared,

getting closer and closer,

louder and louder,

the chain that he is dragging behind him leaving ridges in the grass,

I yell go lay down, they usually do. Thank the Lord above.

Be well my friends, I hope you are all having a great week

and that you are feeling beautiful, positive and loved.

Until next time!

Cinner

Inspiration, Health Update, Prayers, Together we are Stronger

Hi Everyone, Yesterday morning I had to go for a follow up at the surgeons and She was very pleased. She was pleased at how I was healing and even gave me the go ahead to start doing things now. She told me that I had been more prone for infections because of the fat around my tummy and that sometimes people will get infections. I had none of that at all. So over the next two weeks I can do a bit of housework, even a bit of gardening and slowly build up my strength. So this was very good news. Lately everyone is telling me how good I look, I got told today that there is no pain on my face any more...... I keep telling everyone that I am no longer in pain and what I notice the most is the fact that I can touch my skin without it hurting. I think I must of had a lot of poisons in my system...anyway I have to see her one more time in the new year and then that will be all. As I waited for the doctor I got on the scale and have lost fifteen pounds since my operation so I will never ever see those 300 numbers ever again. not ever....Right now I am sitting at 289 and I figure that I will check myself in October first to see how much weight I have lost. I am keeping a journal and have found it is making me more aware of what I am eating. The numbers have never been the biggest thing for me, getting healthy, being more energetic, doing my part to stay or get into good physical health because as we age well we will just encounter more. I have to be responsible for my health.....As for my Cataplexy I have cut back on a few medications and are playing with that a bit. The less pills I am on the better that will be for me.
I will never be able to stop them altogether.....but it is sure nice to know that there are possibilities of improvements....that is all one can hope for....So mentally and physically I am in a very good place at the moment.....I want to wish Diana a speedy recovery. I know you were having your knee operation sometime this week. sending you wishes of love....Gail I am hoping all is well with Gracie Blue let me know how she is doing. My friend Vicky whom is fighting cancer right now, she is such a fighter and an inspiration. Please say prayers for Beth whose friends were hurt in the Indiana State Fair Collapse, and if I have forgotten to mention anyone here know you were not missed on purpose. What I have learned the most is we all have our struggles and somehow through knowing one another I think we will all continue to inspire one another. Everything and anything is possible. so may we all continue to

one another. What inspires you, I would love to hear your stories. I thank all of you for your kind words and love sent my way this summer. Pathology reports came back and there was no Cancer, so right now I see my llife as fantastic. I am inspired by you and all your hard work, all our stories, all our struggles, determination knowing each of us are worth us giving our best. So until next time may we all have Our Very Best Days.
Take care, Cinner
P.s. Spunky Suzi, I have been amazed at how your hand is healing and your determination to keep at things, you are a great role model.  Thats all folks, Over and Out.

All Is Good.

The hot days of summer are among us,

Everything is lush and green.

My nephews are staying with me so I have not been around much.

What I have noticed about an 18 year old and a 13 year old in the house,

they are always hungry, hungry, hungry and that is before, during, and after

they eat. I have been doing okay though and trying to stick to plan.

Everyone is noticing how much better I am after my surgery.

They are surprised by the amount of energy I have.

The other day was the first outing I have had in eight years

where I was able to go to more than one store, and be

able to do more than one thing. I am thrilled to pieces.

3 stores and lunch the other day and a movie later in the evening.

Now I was exhausted the next day and have slowed it down since.

It really really feels wonderful to be feeling fine.

Until next time be well my friends.

Take  care,

Cinner

Another day at the Castle.

So glad my sister and her boys are coming today.

Eating has been off the last few days.

I know better, no excuses.

I looked in the mirror this morning

and I thought sheesh there is another one of my chins.

One that I had lost. So it is a new day to keep going,

keep doing, but just to do it better.

Tired today, thundered and lightning all night last night

again and still raining.

The next three days are supposed to be nice.

So here is hoping, and hoping that you are

having your very best of days.

take care,

Cinner

On the Bright Side

Hi Everyone,

I don't think it is going to stop anytime soon

so here is my list of the benefits of  the rain....

The possibilities of a rainbow...sweet

No yard work, no mosquitoes while it is raining,

fresh air, clean vehicles, time to read a book,

everything is so green, birds sing whether it is raining or not,

I love to dance in the rain and I do,

a bowl of hot soup, time to walk on the treadmill,

love to catch raindrops on my tongue,

mud puddles, bright rain coats, cool boots,

barefoot in the grass.........

Have a great weekend.

Remember dance as if no one is watching.

What would you add to the list,

I would love to read it.

Have Your Very Best Days.

Cinner

Hard work, your kidding me!

Hi Everyone,

This recovery thing, though slow process

has been working out to my benefit....

Hubby is surprised at the amount of work

I usually do around here.

He is pitching in and helping.

He vacummed yesterday on his day off.

I had to go outside as it killed me to watch him.

I caught myself about to say something, and decided go outside,

let him be, appreciate his help, and bite my tongue.

I tend to be more thorough, he was wizzing through the house as

if there were a prize at the other end to get it finished as fast as he could..

He had worked up a sweat and then said, Oh that was hard.

I wanted to say Look after 13 years if you don't know it is hard work,

then your not doing it enough. Anyway this is good for me to give up some

of the control I have in the house.....I am learning it is not as important

as I make it out to be. ....I really do appreciate any help I can get.

Both of us remind the other that we really knew how to get dressed all by 

ourselves before we came into the others life.

Today I am having friends come over so that will be a nice change for me.

I hope you have a great day, are there things your partner does

that drive you crazy or do you find them endearing and one

of the reasons you love them.

........

Have a great day.

until next time,

Cinner

I Feel Great Days Are Ahead.

Good morning,

I can't believe half of the month is almost gone.

Things I have noticed,

my feet are not as swollen,

I seem to have more energy,

I can stay up a bit longer,

I don't feel as lethargic

because of all the fruit and vegetables

I have been eating.

and suddenly I can not get enough

water.

My clothes are fitting better,

I got a new short short hairstyle

so even my head looks smaller

and my clothes are fitting better too.

This has been a strange time for me

and with it has brought a decreased appetite.

I have to say Yeah for that.

I have my preop  this morning at 830

and then next Tuesday the operations.

They were able to coincide both together,

I feel like I am getting an overhaul.

They are removing the right ovary,

will check for Cancer, and then depending on that

they will take the left ovary and the uterus.

so this has been weighing heavily on my head,

I never had any children so I guess they may

as well take these parts as they have not

done me any good. lol.

Maybe this is more info than necessary.

but I am being positive and feel like all will be okay.

Once that is done then the hernia will be fixed,

and a fluid sack that has been looking more and more

like a basketball every day.

I guess my Grandma had one and it was 23 pounds.

Am I crazy to hope my is about 30 pounds.

Funny thing is I feel better this past week

than I have in a while, almost like a peaceful place

is hanging over my head.

This morning when I let the dogs outside,

it was raining and everything smelled so fresh.

looks like hubbys ball game is cancelled tonight,

so maybe we will go out for supper.

Will see how much energy I have left after today.

So that is what has been going on around here,

I know I am in good hands, I know I am loved,

so all is great.

I hope you have your Best Day Ever.

It is what you make it.

Thinking of you all, picturing you working out,

eating well so we all get the lifestyle

that we really want.

I want to experience all in life,

I hold it in the palm of my hand,

It is mine to mold as I like.

Anything and everything is possible.

Until next time,

Cinner

wonderful moments, many

Hi Everyone,

Have you ever woke up and thought

This day is going to be just the best,

Well that is what happened to me today.

I am so happy that my surgery is booked

and that I know I am going to feel much better soon,

I have felt so long that the Cataplexy has me so tired,

but it is a relief to know that there are other reasons

why I have not been feeling as well as I should.

Nothing could go wrong with my day,

When the puppy got hold of some paper 

and tore it up all over the house,

I laughed and picked it up;.

When the sun was shining and the heat was 25 degrees,

I loved it, I closed my eyes and I enjoyed,

When my neighbor came to visit I took time

to be present and really listen. to focus on the moment,

When my other neighbor came over and had to rush away

to find his Dad, I went and helped and we were both

grateful to see him waiting for his son on the balcony.

When I forgot about the water hose running fresh water

through my pond and I left it too long and there was water

in puddles by the pond, puppy and I made trenches,

I felt like a kid. Tonight when Hubby is watching

the hockey game I am glad because he is

so enthralled in his sports this time of year.

I will go be a fan too!

Today was a great day, and tomorrow

will be another, Summer is almost here,

there is nothing like hope and faith to get you through 

a day, and to see it as a gift,

Can you think of all the gifts you had today.

And the day is not over yet.

Enjoy your weekend.

Cinner

Would you change.

Sometimes we are just going to do some odd things,

be a little different, dress a little out of your zone.

This day I was filling a little blue, so I decided 

if your not happy change your day.

This was the outfit I came up with,

and I have to tell you I felt all that and a bag of chips

(oops I mean Salad)

Then when I looked at the picture

I could not help but laugh and think

What the heck was I thinking.

Sometimes we need to go to new places within ourselves.

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How would you choose to dress, if you had nothing holding you back?
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Take care, Cinner

The Miracle Drug!

As I have been aging, as we all do,

I have really started to notice the changes with my skin.

little lines looking like little highways on a road map.

There are freckles, scratches, age lines, dry skin.

The best thing any of us can do is to drink lots and lots of water.

I can literally notice within a couple of days if I am drinking enough or not.

Also because I have problems with circulation, sometimes just to touch my legs

feels sore to the touch. If I drink enough water, there are no pains.

I have read that when babies are born they are 85% water,

which I find fascinating. As we age we shrink, loss of body mass, and that

number decreases as we continue to age. Apparently stress and dehydration

have very similar qualities and are often linked to chronic illnesses.

Also our brains are about 85 % water,

so if we are not drinking enough then our brain is not acting

as best as it could be.

Some of this info I have read on wikipedia.

I know this, this is something I can control,

With proper levels of water I can look years younger,

I can feel years younger, I can have less pain,

so it is a win, win for me.

............

I hope this encourages you to make sure you are drinking enough water.

It really is Gods Miracle Drug!

Have a great day.

Cheers.

                                                                              Cinner

Update and Thank you.

Hi there everybody. Thank you so much for all your kind comments

that you left me on the last post. I am feeling much better today.

There was no sun here today but soon, soon, soon.

......

St. Patrick's day is one of my favorite days of the year.

There is nothing I like better than getting together and singing songs.

I very seldom have a beer, but I usually do have a green beer.

So to all my Irish friends, hold your mug high and shout

Sociables....

No green beer today, I did have a pleasant day,

ate healthy, watched an old Clint Eastwood movie,

walked on my treadmill, talked to my sister about her upcoming wedding,

It is on April 2. I am very excited for her.

....

hope you all have a great weekend.

My plan for the weekend,

..........

no plans, going to go with the flow and 

be happy and grateful for what I have,

for who I am, for my lessons to learn in life.

I will be thankful,

and believe it.

I will walk 500 years, and I will walk 500 more!

           Good Morning Everyone

I woke up this morning with a song singing in my head,

I will walk 500 years, I will walk 500 more.

This played over and over in my mind

as I lay there waking up.

I jumped out of bed and after a few minutes in the reading room (bathroom)

I went and walked on my treadmill for an hour,

and it is only 635 am

Thoughts I had on the treadmill

Is it possible I am starting to like this?

Why do we fight so hard at making the right changes?

Why are most people afraid of change?

I have to start a change jar so I can buy new workout clothes,

Why who sees me when I am working out?

Oh yeah me, that's right.

Stand up straighter, shoulders back,

oh yeah that is better!

Dr. Oz said eating beets can increase your libido,

where did that one come from.

I have beets about once a year.

Well there you go I thought.

Note put beets on the list,

Feed beets to husband,

Just saying!

Dog looking at me in disgust,

big brown eyes clearly stating,

get off that thing and take me for a walk like you used to.

Yeah I will do that too.

I like exercising first thing in the morning,

Why did I just think

Yeah right,

I am really starting to!

Life itself is a proper binge.

A quote I read yesterday by Julia Child.

Oh I feel good, like I know that I should yeah.

A little huffing and puffin,

Need to check out gluten free and going vegan,

Hey no barking you silly dog, I about fell off the treadmill.

Oh I feel so good today, alive, happy, loved.

hmmm a little hungry even,

not used to that in the morning,

My body is like a car, needs fuel to go,

starting to over heat,

needs water,

Dawn is down to a size 22, she is doing so well.

Anne is in Arizona, what a great support system I have,

what a wonderful bunch of ladies and some men in there too.

Allan walked over 1300 stairs, amazing. what could I do

maybe 20, note to self, get out stair stepper,

this floor needs to be vacumed, sometime soon.

ten more minutes to go,

raise incline

going to paint today,

whats that saying

Just Do It,

I like that Loretta.

I wonder how many shoes Forest Gump went through?

Yeah feeling a little scattered today,

Take meds and eat breakfast.

Today is gonna be a good good day,

Black Eyed Peas,

Buy Beets,

Wheww, legs a little unsteady and tingly,

First time I ever walked an hour,

Theme from Rocky comes to mind.

Yo Adrian,

Power Down,

I feel good, like I know that I should now.

You know, I know today is going to be my Very Best Day!

Hope you are loving your life, if not it just takes one moment to turn it around.

Thanks for being with me on my walk.

     

Laughing Yoga Got My Attention!

Today would have been my Dads 77th birthday.

When I woke this morning I was a little sad,

because I always talked to him on his birthday.

He was always so happy when we called.

Today would be the second year that he is gone.

Today my sadness was gone once I watched the above video.

Yoga Laughter....I could not imagine what it was, although I did think if anyone watched me doing Yoga,

well there that would be reason enough to have a good laugh, and that is no joke.

So I watched the video and I immediately started to laugh.

I loved it, My Dad had a good sense of humor and I could see him chuckling along with this.

He might have one eyebrow raised but he would be laughing.

.............

The funny thing is that I have Narcolepsy with Severe Cataplexy.

Cataplexy is triggered by strong emotions,

one of them being laughter.

Cataplexy is a loss of muscle control from the dropping of your head

to complete loss of Muscle Control which is what I had.

So every time I would laugh I would fall over and just lay there,

and if I continued to think about what had caused me to laugh well the longer I would lay there.

It was scary at first because I did not know what was wrong with me.

Thankfully I was diagnosed quickly by a neurologist and it has

taken almost eight years with medication to have what I call

a Normal Life....whatever that is.....

A friend of mine asked if you had a choice and had to choose to Never Laugh Again

for your illness to be gone would you want that.

Absolutely not,

I can not imagine a life with no laughter,

As a matter of fact I have been known for my sense of humor.

So I choose to stay just how I am, 

getting plenty of rest so that the Cataplexy

happens the least amount possible.

When there is a group of family or friends together,

the more Cataplexy I have.

Sometimes I lay there thinking, for lord sakes talk about something serious,

so I can sit up again. On the phone, my Mom always says are you still there

or did you laugh, then she goes are you there, are you there,

and I think stop because this is insane, your making me laugh inside.

........

Laughter has kept my spirit strong, and the reason for me blogging,

I wanted to make others aware of what Cataplexy is.....

So knowing that if I was at this class or at a laughing yoga class,

probably would not be the best situation for me,

I can laugh here at home and watch sitting down 

so that I don't hurt myself.

I say the best medicine for any illness

is Laughter. I know some days are hard, and you think you

will never smile or laugh again

I think Laughing Yoga would help us all.

I think it would be fun to have your own Laughing Yoga Support Group.

I will see if I can get my husband in on this when he gets home from work.

I have remarried, I forgot to state that in my last post.

His most endearing feature,

is his ability to laugh  and make me laugh.

I would love to hear your thoughts on this.

I am going to make it a part of my daily routine,

after all I do love John Cleese.

May you have your Best Day Ever.

Be Your Own Best Friend!

The above picture is from polyvore.com that I made.

If you have not been there you may want to take a look.

I thought this picture corresponds with what I wanted to write about today.

We are all at the centers of our universe.

and we have choices we make.

We have choices to look in the mirror, to be kind to ourselves,

to find the beauty in all of us, If there is self loathing,

the world around you will look pretty bleak.

I know from experience that changing your life starts within.

I have had hard times, you can either stay in misery or change your life.

some of you know a bit of my history, I was raped when I was fourteen,

I could never have any children, I have gone through a divorce, I have lost many loved ones,

I have a chronic illness that at times can be very dibilitating.

When I lost my job due to illness financially times were very hard.

So I had two choices be negative because my life so drastically changed

or make the most out of things.. And this is how I looked at my life.

The illness had made me realize that I was not my work,

that I could slow down and realize what was really meaningful in my life.

The financial part well I really did not need for much and I learned the difference

between necessities and luxuries. When I got divorced yes it was a rough time, I look at it

that because of my divorce I grew to be a strong woman, I hold no resentment,

two people that certainly did not come from the same walks of life,

no one was at fault, being raped is a tragedy that will not be a negative,

because I have learned from that. The only way to get through that is to work through it

and make it into a positive. I became a stronger person.

As for no children, maybe it was not in Gods plan.

I live my best life, I live it today, Every day I have is a gift.

Every day I do the best I can and Every day I choose to be happy or sad.

Some of the readings I have read lately I have found to be very disturbing,

If you look in the mirror and you hate yourself and tell yourself that,

well I really believe you want to stay trapped in your situation.

By positive thinking you can really change your whole life.

Someone very close to me lost about 130 pounds,

she thought that getting thin would make her happy,

but if you don't start with the inside.

the outside won't make up for it.

This person could not understand

why she was not happy.

I don't want to come across as a know it all,

because I certainly don't.

Please find the positives because if you believe,

the things one hates or dislikes just does not stay important any longer.

And once you find your inner beauty and your outer beauty,

happiness grows faster than any other emotion.

and happy makes for a much better outlook on life.

This life is a gift, I love it, I cherish it,

Because I almost lost it.

Life can be hard

and fragile.

I hope 

you find

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Have your Best Day Ever!

May We All Find Our Sexy!

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There is something to be said for being comfortable  in ones own skin.

I believe I am.

Skinny has never been important to me.

Healthy on the other hand has.

I believe woman of all shapes and sizes are beautiful, gorgeous.

Confidence is the most intriguing thing  a person can have.

We have to love ourselves as we are and that is when we can work on changing

the baggage we carry around with us.

Sure if I get smaller and feel sexier that will be a bonus,

but if I can get healthier and walk to the end of the block without being out of breath

that is what will keep me working on my goal, 

it is my health, right now if someone thinks I don't look good,

well they don't have to look at me.

I may not be every idea of what a woman should look like,

but this is me, we all have different reasons for changing lifestyles,

I think the majority is to feel healthier.

That was my feeling once I became ill with Cataplexy.

Today I saw the Surgeon and it will be a wait

but my hernia will be fixed along with other stomach complications.

that on another post to follow..

So take a good look and be real.

It is not an easy road,

it is the hardest job we will probably ever accomplish,

we deserve to live the lives we want,

so I am holding my bottle of water high,

and saying their is a Diva in all of us..

You may want to check out the drawings by Dwayne Breyer 

of Hilda.

I think she is the sexiest of all times.

I love her too..

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Lastly I have a girlfriend

whom has been working on losing the last ten pounds,

it used to drive me crazy,

I would think it is only ten pounds.

To her that ten pounds is as important to her

as my excess weight.

She tries so hard, so we all have our own demons.

May we all have a wonderful day

and no matter what belief in yourself.

I know I can do anything as long as I get a good night rest..

It takes 3 weeks to make something a habit.

It is a new month and a new day.

Hugs.