One of the things I have really been focusing
on lately is positive versus negative thinking.
Now I think I am a pretty positive person
about life, about myself.
I believe in living your best days etc.
But when I really get down to things,
some of my distortive thinking
has been that I am broken
since I got my illness,
just that I am not capable of doing what I used to.
Another one has been my not being able to
have children, that somehow I was not
whole, I was broken.
I realize that when one has these thoughts,
that it is going to impact everything.
I think one can only hide behind their strength
for so long, and sooner or later you have
to deal with the so called crap in our lives.
When one has an invisible illness,
you encounter all kinds of doubt,
unfortunately a lot of people
believe your overweight,
nothing wrong with her, she is just fat and lazy.....
So there are a few of my distorted thoughts.
so I have learned this.
Example if I think someone thinks that I am fat and lazy,
that is my perception. I am not a mind reader,
and if they really do think that,
I have a choice to let that effect me or not..
So if someone thinks it or glances at you wrong,
We can go from zero to 360 about rudenes,
bottom line is So What, does their opinion matter,
The validation does not need to come from someone
else, because we have to believe in ourselves.
I am losing this weight for me,
for me, for nobody else,
I don't need to be told I look okay,
I need to know that within myself.
So out with any negative,
too much time and energy
is wasted on the what ifs
I like me and I am learning to
I keep hearing from the movie help
You is kind,
You is beautiful,
you is important.
On Monday I had three appointments
and all are very happy with my progress
in one month is seventeen pounds lost,
more energy, keeping goals,
more confidence, changed how I am eating,
I am controlling the food, the food no longer
I am off to a good start.
I hope you all have a Very Good Day!
Until next time,