I have had an interesting couple of days,
First one of our neighbors came to see us on Saturday,
He had gotten sick apparently in December
and had a heart operation.
He came through everything just fine.
I had a visit with him on the 7th of December.
So he was already back at work last week,
and had overdone it and right back in the hospital.
He talked about he had two good days,
but he apparently had to learn to pace himself.
My husband told him that that is what happens to me.
I awake with energy and then do to much,
and then I am down for the count for 3 days.
Anyway the weather was nice,
and I am trying to get in better shape,
have a bad cold, a bit of trouble breathing because it is in my chest.
Anyway we wanted to go two blocks down to see the ice sculptures.
It was an art festival..
O.K. we will take the dogs,
We went down two blogs,
I told my husband I could not do it,
had to go home and would see him soon,
He was just going to keep walking the dogs.
I could see from where I was a couple of wigwams,
bomb fires, the ice sculptures, weiner roasts, hot chocolate,
a hill for sledding, there were indoor things to check out.
I was frustrated knowing that I had to head home.
I turned around and walked about one half a block,
huffing, puffing, my heart was racing,
my one leg was going numb.
I was afraid!
I went a bit farther, had to lean against a tree,
Two more houses down I leaned on the fence.
Why had I not brought my cane?
I could see my house,
only four houses away,
Was I going to make it?
I had to stop two doors down,
I waited for about 5 minutes,
walked to my front yard gate,
balanced myself for a few minutes,
entered the yard,
Only about twelve more feet to go.
Three stairs to get to my door,
I was very shaky,
I unlocked the door,
and sat on a bench in my front porch.
I had made it!
I started to cry, it had been such an overwhelming experience for me!
About 10 minutes later I was okay, still a bit out of breath,
My husband walked through the door and said,
Hey, how are you, are you okay!
He and the dogs had had a great walk,
I told him about what happened!
The thing is I could have done that in the morning.
For me to even venture out at four in the afternoon is crazy.
You see I have all the symptoms of Narcolepsy,
and somedays putting one foot in front of the other is almost impossible.
So is walking four blocks in the late afternoon.
I want to embrace life and all it can offer,
but I have to remember little by little!
I don't like to complain about it, and I am not,
I am writing this in case anyone else struggles and has ever felt the same way!
My husband had offered to walk me home,
but I wanted him to have fun,
and I was sure I would have been fine.
I am glad that this did happen to me today
Because I really have to do as much as I can
to be able to stay ahead of this illness.
There is no doubt in my mind that if I lost some weight I would have easier days.
So I have everything to start in the am,
my journal, my meals all prepared for the day,
all my exercise equipment is in my living
room with my name on it.
Tai Chi to Start!
I am doing everything in my power
not to have another day like today.
I am not having a pity party, there are many diseases worse than mine,
I am just being honest, that I have bad days too.
And sometimes a Reality check hits you on the head!
Sorry about the long post.
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Thank you to everyone that commented.
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