My Life Changing Victories

"The more you lose yourself in something bigger than yourself, the more energy you will have."

Norman Vincent Peale

My Little Victories

I realized yesterday that I have made some major progress in the last year.

The first of which was kicking my boyfriend Stanley to the curb.

For those of you whom don't know my boyfriend Stanley....

well Stanley is a cane, so now Stanley stands in a corner.

I have not had the pleasure of Stanley's company all of this year.

So that is major for me.

Secondly is that I feel stronger

both mentally and physically.

The purchase of my treadmill has helped gain strength in my legs,

and mentally how I feel after I have walked can make the outlook on the day

very positive. I can be drop dead tired, walk for even ten minutes,

and I feel recharged, instantly have more energy,

so I am not spending as much time sitting on my couch

limited by my condition Cataplexy.

I will always have to have naps to control this,

however instead of 3 hour naps every 3 hours,

now I need about one hour every 3 hours,

so that is major in the year.

So because of this I am awake more now

than I have been in eight years.

Lets face it you can't accomplish much if you are sleeping most of the time.

My word for 2011 is Control.

I decided that I needed to take control of my illness as much as I could,

and to not let it control me. 

My illness does not define me, nor does my weight.

I guess I started to really live again by putting the effort  into my own life,

redefining whom I am and living within my limitations of the illness.

One of the main goals for myself in my Lifestyle Journey

was realizing how much I need to stay on a schedule.

A schedule for meals, for sleeping, for exercising,

for visiting, for outings, etc.

Control the situation.

My clothes have been fitting looser.

I am not getting on the scale until after my surgeries

for my hernia and large stomach cyst

which still may be two months away.

I am increasing my exercise regime

and can hardly wait to see the changes in myself

in even three months.

We all have our own reasons for losing weight,

mine was because so much was happening to my body

that I could not change....see Cataplexy.

I wanted to do everything I possibly could to help me

take care of what I have realized is the best gift I have ever recieved,

sad that I had taken it for granted that it would just keep functioning at 100%.

because why ....it is so hard to get away from the idea that

nothing will ever happen to me.

Well it can, it does and it will

if we take our health for granted.

I am on the biggest fight of my life,

I am worth all my efforts every day.

There is that saying that all good things come to those who wait,

I have changed that to all good things come to those who work hard to be their best.

I may fall down and come a little short on some days,

but I pick myself back up, shake off the cobwebs and keep going.

It is not all consuming,

It is about me choosing

to live a better life.

...............

Words to kick to the curb today.

I'm tired, can't, it hurt's, I don't feel like it,

I don't have time.

.........................

Be positive,

attitude is everything,

and don't ever quit.

...........

I hope you have your 

best day ever.

Feel good and remember

you matter.

Be well.

Cinner