Monday, March 7, 2011

My Life Changing Victories

"The more you lose yourself in something bigger than yourself, the more energy you will have."
Norman Vincent Peale

My Little Victories

I realized yesterday that I have made some major progress in the last year.
The first of which was kicking my boyfriend Stanley to the curb.
For those of you whom don't know my boyfriend Stanley....
well Stanley is a cane, so now Stanley stands in a corner.
I have not had the pleasure of Stanley's company all of this year.
So that is major for me.
Secondly is that I feel stronger
both mentally and physically.
The purchase of my treadmill has helped gain strength in my legs,
and mentally how I feel after I have walked can make the outlook on the day
very positive. I can be drop dead tired, walk for even ten minutes,
and I feel recharged, instantly have more energy,
so I am not spending as much time sitting on my couch
limited by my condition Cataplexy.
I will always have to have naps to control this,
however instead of 3 hour naps every 3 hours,
now I need about one hour every 3 hours,
so that is major in the year.
So because of this I am awake more now
than I have been in eight years.
Lets face it you can't accomplish much if you are sleeping most of the time.
My word for 2011 is Control.
I decided that I needed to take control of my illness as much as I could,
and to not let it control me. 
My illness does not define me, nor does my weight.
I guess I started to really live again by putting the effort  into my own life,
redefining whom I am and living within my limitations of the illness.
One of the main goals for myself in my Lifestyle Journey
was realizing how much I need to stay on a schedule.
A schedule for meals, for sleeping, for exercising,
for visiting, for outings, etc.
Control the situation.
My clothes have been fitting looser.
I am not getting on the scale until after my surgeries
for my hernia and large stomach cyst
which still may be two months away.
I am increasing my exercise regime
and can hardly wait to see the changes in myself
in even three months.
We all have our own reasons for losing weight,
mine was because so much was happening to my body
that I could not change....see Cataplexy.
I wanted to do everything I possibly could to help me
take care of what I have realized is the best gift I have ever recieved,
sad that I had taken it for granted that it would just keep functioning at 100%.
because why is so hard to get away from the idea that
nothing will ever happen to me.
Well it can, it does and it will
if we take our health for granted.
I am on the biggest fight of my life,
I am worth all my efforts every day.
There is that saying that all good things come to those who wait,
I have changed that to all good things come to those who work hard to be their best.
I may fall down and come a little short on some days,
but I pick myself back up, shake off the cobwebs and keep going.
It is not all consuming,
It is about me choosing
to live a better life.
Words to kick to the curb today.
I'm tired, can't, it hurt's, I don't feel like it,
I don't have time.
Be positive,
attitude is everything,
and don't ever quit.
I hope you have your 
best day ever.
Feel good and remember
you matter.
Be well.


  1. I wish you could fully understand your impact on the world. Every time I visit your blog I know I can go on, do more, be more. Such an inspiration! And sadly I always need the motivation. THANK YOU!

  2. Hi beautiful lady-
    you are such an inspiration to me. Wow!! Victories indeed!! Keep on keeping on and savor each moment as you go along. k?
    Skipp and I are headed out together today, we are like two school kids on summer vacation :-)
    Loving you always

  3. 've nominated you for an award - hope you don't mind. Reference to it is on my blog - its because I really enjoy your blog - Thanks

  4. I can't stop smiling! I'm sooo happy for you and proud of you my friend!! You have achieved great things and I'm so excited about the future for you! Warm Hugs!

  5. I am new to your blog, but I like it very much. It is inspirational to me that you encourage others when your own situation is so taxing---thank you! Blessings, Olivia

  6. Hey Cinner, I love your blog and your words. You always make me feel hopeful. I wanted to invite you to a private blog, but I don't have your e-mail address. If you're interested, please e-mail it to me at

  7. Thanks for visiting me tonight. I love this attitude that you are writing about, attitude is definitely everything.

  8. Cinner you could be the spokeswoman for health and well being! You never cease to amaze me. Thank you for sharing all of your positivity with us! Love Di ♥

  9. Congratulations, Cinner, on kicking your boyfriend, Stanley, to the curb and taking control of your conditions and your life. May you never need Stanley again. In control is a good place to be. Best wishes for your continued success and thanks for the inspiration.

  10. You have done so much this year!! You have a lot to be very proud of!!! May I ask why you have to wait so long for your surgeries?

  11. Gayle hi, just because of the wait times. I could go to the emergency and this might speed up the process, plus I have to have another ct scan. I saw the surgeon on Feb. 1, the ct scan is not until march 21, then they will be booking me for surgery...everything is wait, wait up here. I should not complain, at least we have medical coverage. thanks for asking, hope this clarifies more. take care hugs.

  12. Hey you!! Just came over from the pj's to say hi and follow...Guess what...I'm your 100th follower! YAY YOU!!! hehe

  13. I just love your fighting spirit and words of wisdom and glad you kicked Stanley to the curb....and your attitude pushes me live my best life. Thanks're the best....stay strong out there.

  14. A great victory for yourself, Cinner!! Before you know it, you'll be donating Stanley for good because you won't need him.

  15. Marty you made my day today for sure, whoo hooo. hugs.

  16. No longer needing Stanley! That's huge! Congratulations. And your clothes are fitting more loosely, and you feel better, have more energy, and you've reduced the amount of time you need to sleep by two-thirds!

    Cinner, this is all such good news. I wish you well as you prepare mentall and emotionally for the CT scan.

  17. Kathryn, thank you so much, I will be glad to get the ct scan and then the surgery over. Today I was tired but all in all much improvement. thank you. over to see you soon.


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