Wednesday, September 5, 2012

Hi Everyone, I am back and anxious to visit
all your blogs and catch up on how you have been doing.
I am embarrassed to say that I fell right off the wagon.
About a month ago I was back at my Doctors for a check up,
and I said I am just so tired as if everything is an effort.
He asked if I had gained any weight.
I said no I don't think so.
I had not been on the scale since my Weight Wise class finished
the end of March..
Long story short, I am at my heaviest right now.
I am tired of feeling this way, of being out of breath,
of becoming more and more docile in the past few months.
I worried about coming back on here,
as if I would be judged or perceived as a failure,
but I know for me I need to do this.
Two days ago I started drinking more water again.
The goal is 8 glasses a day.
I also have started walking on my treadmill.
I was only able to do 2.5 minutes, but it is a start.
My first goal is to be able to walk to the park
which is two long city blocks.
If I can do that then I can get out of my house again.
And then make it three blocks to our local coffee shop,
so I don't feel so isolated in the house.
On my hubbies days off we go out,
but because of my Cataplexy I have been limited
as to what I can do...
But that is going to be at any size and I can not use it as
an Excuse to not work my hardest at what I want most.
I know I am worth it to be my best,
and to feel healthy,
and to be more active.
And so it begins!
Thanks for reading,
Cinner

17 comments:

  1. Hey darling girl....have missed your sweet soul here in blogdom. Don't ever doubt that you not your success or set backs are what I come to visit you for. I love your view of life, your dear heart and I suppose I should say that I appreciate your bravery in saying what is your truth.
    As a friend of mine says....so let's begin again, together. Wishing you well,OmaLinda

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    1. Hi Linda, you are so kind to me. I have missed you and your sense of humor and your stories of the kids, etc.
      And yes lets begin again. Because I am trying again that already means I am making progress. Hope you are all well and feeling okay. hugs my dear friend.

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  2. Cinner, it's so nice to have you back. I, for one, have missed you. Don't doubt what you can do - never!!! One can do and does do, the key is to do it for oneself. Take care and keep treading - is it in a location where you can see interesting things? Such as the outdoors changing into fall?

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  3. Hi Shelley, oh it is nice to hear you missed me. I have missed being around. Funny how After just a few days I am already starting to feel better. I have the treadmill in my Living Room, I can see out the windows and watch TV. I love this time of year. Hugs to you, will be around for a visit and catch up.

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  4. I will never ever judge you as a failure. I will only be disappointed if you give up. Don't give up.

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    1. Thankyo Unknown Mami, I won't give up. I am back at it, It was good to come back here as I find I stay on track more when I do. Give a kiss to those little ones. I have to catch up on your adventures. hugs.

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  5. well, isn't this serendipitous! Just now I thought I would check in and see what was up...

    Having fallen off the wagon a few times myself - as surely haven't we all? - I would never judge. I am glad to to see you back. I have missed you but wasn't sure if you were still posting or just not visiting.

    as it is fall, I am trying to get a huge portion of my fluids from apples from the farmers markets. I figure the chewing should burn a few calories, too, shouldn't it? doesn't matter, they are darn tasty this time of year.

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    1. Violet Sky, so glad to see you, we must have been thinking of one another. . you made me laugh I think chewing burns calories...lol. Apples are awesome, I do miss apples from my Dads trees. Thank you for cheering me up. I will make a point of coming to see you now that I am back, Your blog has always been one of my favorites. hugs to you.

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  6. lovely to see you post Cinner
    wishing you dreams come true
    hello from my last day in Italy~

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    1. Lucky you to be there. I so want to go one day. Can't wait to hear all about it. you must have gotten some amazing photos. Thanks for visiting. You have even inspired me. I started drawing again. hugs.

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  10. Cindy... I have fallen off the wagon you are on soooo many times that there is a path BESIDE the wagon with my name on it; I'm not kidding. The goal to lose weight is such a difficult one. No one really knows how hard it is until he/she has had to endure it. I love apples...BUT, I love potato chips more. Sigh. I do sooo well during the daytime, and then at nightime, that "munchy" thing happens to me. I cave in to it. What's with that?? I say all that to say this, I get back up off that path beside the wagon, drag myself back onto the wagon, and here I go again. It's the getting up and getting back to "gettin' back" that keeps me going. I am thankful for your honesty and willingness to share your ups as well as your downs with us, your blogging friends. You make me proud of you...being able to be frank with yourself shows you have this thing "whippable"... Yep. Just sayin'.
    And...you know I hug and love you....just the way you are.
    Love,
    J.

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