Out of Focus

Yes this is me admitting that I am way out of focus.

I tallied up my water for the month of July

Goal 300 Actual  152

This is glasses of water not weight....

So first goal for August, you guessed it is actually hitting my target.

The boys say they are going to help me starting in the morning.

why not tonight? Well I sent them off to a ballgame with their Uncle.

My second goal is to get plenty of rest.

We have all been up until midnight the last few nights,

and today well I just have to admit their mother is right.

They do need plenty of rest.

It really reminds me how our moods can effect our whole day.

This is what I learned today.

1. my nephews hate wall papering

2. Things must have really been different in the old days

back in the 80's(what are they kidding me)

3. the boys think their mother needs to learn more about computers

and get into the now.

4.Printers work if you plug them in. oh yes the joy of the 18 year old to tell me that.

I might have to glue his shoes to the floor tonight. lol. ahhh if only I could bend.

5. The pigeons from next door are learning to fly and they can make it to the next

house on the other side. I guess this reminds me to take small steps.

6. I learned today how awesome it is to come here and read all

your wonderful comments and how that lifted my spirits.

A big hug and a thank you to all.

Well off to fill the glass again,

Until next time

Cinner

Gratitude, Attitude, ..........

Hello to all,

Sorry I have not been around much,

The week has flown by and now the weekend has snuck

up on me.

I wanted to pop in and wish the guys

A Happy Fathers Day!

Every year my husband goes to the mailbox

and says "No Cards again this year".

His idea of funny, and I say Better Luck next year.

(Yes he is a character)

.................

I have been doing well with my eating,

although my sleep habits are a little off.

I have heard the loss of a blog  friend,

please see my other blog,

plus a friend of the family has passed away too.

It was almost identical to my Dad,

so my prayers go out to all the families.

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I am grateful for all things in my life,

for my friends here in blog land

that have shown me care and guidance, support and encouragement,

and most of all friendship.

I am grateful for the robin that stops outside my window

every day. The robin looked a little rough this morning

due to all the rain over the last few days.

I am grateful for friends, family, both new and old.

.................

I will be away from the computer for awhile but will be back 

just as soon as I can.

I will be having a  Giveaway at my other blog

when I get back , I was going to do it sooner,

but we have had a Postal Strike,

so I have not managed to get cards in the mail either.

Also to Maria, I will do a post when I get back,

Thank you for the award hon.

I will get my sister to post an update after my surgery on Tuesday.

I feel really positive and strong,

grateful that I am in good hands.

.........

so hoping you all are having a wonderful day,

doing your best to achieve the lifestyle you want.

Until next time,

have your very best of days.

I Will sit in a corner, and just suck my thumb, omg

The last few days have been flying by.

I have to say I feel like my head has been through a bug zapper.

No not that bad.....

This was a conversation I had with a receptionist....

ME...Hi it is Cinner ---- I was wondering if Dr..SO and So is in on Tuesday.

HER; let me look, who is your doctor, what is my name.

ME; Tell her my Dr. So and So, tell and spell my name.

HER; yes he is in that day,, what time would you like.

Me; Is one and one fifteen available?

Her: Yes, okay just give me a minute.

ME; no problem,

HER. Okay I have you booked for Tuesday morning,

ME, no I need the one and one fifteen appointment please.

HER, okay I have you in for one and one fifteen.

ME. Perfect, I will see you on Tuesday, Thank you.

HER, Thank you, see you then.....

........

okay so not too bad right,

Saturday morning I get a phone call asking me why I had double booked

our appointments. I explained it had been a mistake made by the other lady

I had talked to, I explained that I only needed the one oclock and the one fifteen,

HER;;;oh oh okay, well I will cancel the 9  ad 9 fifteen, can you hold please.

Me; no problem.

HER. Okay so we will see you Tuesday at one and one fifteen 

with Dr. XYZ.

ME,. My appointment was supposed to be with my

family doctor So and So.

.....

are you ready for this?

HER. Your doctor is not in on Tuesday.

By all that is holy I have no idea how I did not come unglued at the seams.

I said, I was told he would be in and I need to see him before

my surgeries that are supposed to be at the end of the month.

HER...oh well then you will need to book a preop appointment

and that will be longer.

I said okay when is my Doctor in,

well he is in but not until the 13th.

Okay I will book the appointment.

HER; What is your number on the form,

ME; What form?

HER..Your preop form.

I don't have the form, My doctor had asked me to call

and see him about my visit to the surgeons office.

.................

HER, I am sorry you can only see your

doctor for one thing at a time.

ME, 100, 99, 98, 97......1, then I proceed to say

Please just put me down for followup..

HER...Oh yeah that will work,

ME, Great that will be good,

HER. What was your name again?

I can not even tell you what was going through 

my head at this point,

I can not even type it because

I think my computer

would blow up

...................

Now I know I have been trying really really hard,

I snorfed down 2 pieces of rhubarb pie before

I could even think about it....

but then I refrained from eating the whole pie.

I was just feeling so frustrated,

obviously an emotional eater.

But good thinks come to those who wait,

the next morning I had a phone call from the hospital

and everything just fell into place like it should.

Surgery is booked,

In two weeks I should be good as new.

One catch.

I still have to go see my Doctor

next Monday,

and I can't remember the time,

I kid you not.

I think I will get my Hubby to check.

It was so ridiculous we did have a good laugh

when I was telling him about it,

sorry this was so long winded,

I needed to get this off

my chest.

Take care and thank you all for your 

kind comments on my last post.

Until next time,

Cinner

Beware of Strong Emotions!

Hey there it's the cat,

I am not too popular today,

Cinner was sitting at the table cutting up steak

for her supper. I had dropped a ball of yarn on the table

earlier. I was sitting on the stool, she threw the wool and I leaped off

the stool, to hear a great big bang behind me.

Ooopss I had knocked the stool over.

The noise was incredible.

I guess I startled Cinner because she had one of those

Cataplexy Spells. It was different this time, she did not fall to the floor,

but she could not regain her speech for quite a while.

I jumped up and ate a bunch of the steak,

well it was not like she could give me heck

and after these spells she gets very tired,

so she sure would not be chasing me around the house.

She has not had one of these spells for quite a while,

they are a little scary for her as I saw some tears in her eyes

Mr. Cinner came home and saved the day.

The stools from their new table set has some kind of string in the bottom

of the seat in the stools, so when it fell over,

it did sound like a gunshot.

Anyway now that she knows that can happen,

she won't be surprised next time.

Cataplexy is triggered by strong emotions,

being startled, laughter, excitement, anger, etc.

I think it is much easier being a cat.

It all worked out okay though,

I had steak that was pretty good,

Cinner had a long sleep, and I laid beside her

so she could listen to me purr.

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Other than that it was an uneventful day.

Here is something that may be of some interest to you.

It may give you a better understanding of how it is to live with this condition.

take care,

the cat

I Have To Admit

I Have To Admit

today with a strong wind I could topple right over,

be gentle with me whispering wind.

I Have To Admit

today I feel every ache and pain,

I could cry tears like the Tsunami in Japan.

I Have To Admit

today I am as unsure as the weather.

..................

A 2 day Break, it feels like a week.

The sun was beaming in the window this afternoon for about ten minutes.

It was the best ten minutes ever.

I sit right next to where these flowers were,

so I got some sunshine too,

The warmth was heaven.

Now these tulips put a huge smile on my face the other day

when Hubby brought them home.

As soon as I saw the bright pink and yellows

my spirits seemed to lift.

I laughed when I noticed the last time I posted

was Wednesday and here it is Friday,

but I feel  good again, so so much for a break,

My surgeries are just playing the waiting game to get in,

but I have restless nights because of the hernia,

so if I fall behind my sleep then I fall.

take for example last night,

I get up in the middle of the night go to the computer room,

after I am coming out, hubby is just coming out of the bedroom,

it was dark, I had not heard him and he says hey what are you doing up?

I was startled since I did not know he was there,

another thing that triggers Cataplexy is being startled,

my legs went limp and down I went,

Hubby turns the light on and is telling me You will be okay,

I can't answer but I am thinking to myself,

Put on some shorts for land sakes,

I am thinking this as I am sitting up.

I say to him, what were you doing in the hallway, and why did you scare me,

He says I thought you were sleeping,

 I was trying to be quiet.

I said to him Maybe next time you are helping me you could be wearing your pjs.

That is not what I want to be seeing when I am lying on the floor.,

and now he had me laughing again.,

the look on his face was priceless and I was just thinking,

please stop making me laugh, I just want to get up and walk

and go to bed. Finally we make it there and he asks if I am okay,

yes I am fine, I thanked him for helping me up.

I told him we need to figure out a system so that does not happen again.

you just never know when it will hit.

About a half an hour ago, the light goes on in the bedroom,

I hear in his deep voice, Just letting you know I am going through.

Okay thanks, all was good.

Thank you God Amen I muttered to myself.

.....................

sleep, soup, water, was my regime the last few days.

the flowers above were to make me feel better,

which they did.

Hubby said when he gave them to me,

 Its  good time to get them after Valentines day.

they were on sale, and they were right at the counter,

I started to laugh, he just makes me laugh all the time,

thats why my sleep is so important.

............

I have thought if I ever wrote a book these might be some good titles,

I am Falling Down Again,

Laugh Until It Hurts

Dying Laughing

Another Laughing Matter

Laughter Can Really Hurt

.............

Sorry I am rambling on. Thank you all for your kind wishes.

Oh and Best News of All.

Hubby and I are starting to work out in the morning.

that should be fun.

as for the rest of the day I don't think

we will be venturing far,

it is minus forty here with the wind chill.

I hope you have a wonderful weekend,

remember life is what we make it.

Laugh at yourself and the world laughs with you.

remember we can do anything and everything

as best as we know how.

Be Your Very Best and I hope you

 Have Your Very Best Day Ever!

Cinner

A Bit Of A Break is Required, Doctors Orders.

Here we are the middle of the week again,

I have been reading some blog posts

and you are all doing so great,

you should give yourselves a great big round of applause,

I mean it, it is so good to read of all your progress,

reaching goals, getting bracelets, denying yourself cake,

why because you can and you are putting yourself first

and being your own best friend.

you know there is power in numbers

and strength when we support one another.

I have met some wonderful new followers lately,

ones that I can so relate too.

I have had a few health setbacks in the last few days.

I am awaiting to have some surgeries for stomach problems,

and because I have not been getting enough rest,

my Cataplexy has kicked into high gear,

so I need to take a break to get this back 

under control.

I won't be away long

and I will check in on you when I can.

So my friends take care,

and continued success.

Hope to be back soon,

Until next time,

Have your very Best Days Ever,

take care,

Cinner

p.s. I will be staying on track

and hope to have some progress 

when I return.

Going, Going, Gone.

Hey there everyone, just touching base before I go to the wedding,

I am somewhat over my anxiety,

let me say for today anyway.

I have done good with the not sliding into bad habits,

oh how I have wanted to a few times.

I even had items in my hand,

put them down, picked them up, put them down.

and actually won the battle,

now I am winning the battle of not staying in my house.

off to see my sister in the am.

I am excited, we always have such a good time together

and we always do so good with out eating when we are together too.

Thanks to everyone for the comments, I finally was able to respond.

So I hope you are all well, doing good, and staying on track.

I will be back as soon as I can, 

I will be having withdrawals and not from food,

from you guys.

Keep well.

Until next time,

Cinner

Hello and Happy New Year!

Hi I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and were able to avoid too many temptations.

I had a wonderful Christmas with my Mom and my hubby. It was a long drive, eleven hours,

but we lucked out and had wonderful weather and the full moon to guide our way.

I actually got some amazing pictures of the moon to show you.

I still have to unpack and find my camera.

I am very glad to say that the saga of Mr. Musta has come to an end.

Mr. Musta has been thrown into a snow bank for now and has been replaced today

by a new treadmill. for the time being I have no name in mind, but it will come to me.

A important message...if you have Cataplexy you may want to stay off of an Eliptical Machine.

What an effort that was, so I was on it for about 30 seconds, laughed, fell off, twisted my knee,

and hurt my glass all in about a minute. So the treadmill won out and now I can get back on track,

you note I said get back on track.....enough of that though I am looking forward to the New Year.

New goals, new plans, new beginnings.

I wish you every success in the New Year and I hope it is a year where all your 

Dreams Come True.

Take care,

Cinner

To Your Inner Goddess Or Mr. Goddess.

As a bunch of others have done I am taking a break from blogging

just over the holidays. I wanted to pop in and wish you the very 

Best  and wish you continued success in whatever

your goals are.

I hope you all see and feel the beauty both from the  inside and the outside.

Remember there is a Goddess or a Mr. Goddess in all of us,

and an inner strength to do whatever we put our minds too.

I hope you are with and surrounded by people

that bring out the best in you.

I wish you

Peace, Joy & Love

Until Next Year

Cindy (Cinner)

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The above photo is a statue that sits in my garden,

With a little editing she does not look quite so cold.

Tale care..

810 calories per hour! Whoooo Hoooooo!

This is out on my street last week,

picture the same street with about 2 feet blown in.

snow shoveling calculations for burning calories,

810 per hour.

I shoveled 3 times yesterday so 2430 calories burned,

and funny thing,

there is more of the white stuff out there today

than yesterday and the wind has blown snowdrifts almost as high as my fence.

and somedays it is okay to say I don't want to,

and then you go do it anyway.

and your out there thinking how cold you are and are wondering why

your sweating, and why you have to lean on the fence to catch your breath,

I feel sorry for the people that literally can not get out to do this,

so I am going to venture out, why because I can.

And that is enough reason for today.

Keep warm, enjoy,

Until next week,

cinner.

Someone was listening!

So picture this,

today was plus 3,

can you believe this,

on Tuesday it was minus 46 with the windchill,

so I turned up my music and today I danced,

and yes like nobody was watching,

on a sunny afternoon,

and I am happy.

very, very

happy.

joy.

.............................

still working on fixing Mr. Musta,

still drinking water, have to increase because of cramps in my legs,

portion control is the key, especially this time of year,

my cough is still hanging on, but the cold is gone,

now if I could only have a solid 

nights sleep.

Have a great weekend,

the above picture

was drawn by my nephew

and I just love it,

thats exactly how my trees look.

Naked and pretty as a picture.

Be well.

Aw Come On!

Hi Everyone,

In my part of the world winter has come,

the white stuff is falling as I type,

slowly, slowly to the ground,

we are supposed to get more more by the end of the day.

..................

Something is wrong with Mr. Musta.

there is no power for him at all,

I have put the information book somewhere and am searching

hi and low for that book to be found,

so hopefully

Mr, Musta and I can bond again.

.............

I have a bad cold and have been living on

hot Lemon and Chicken Noodle Soup.

I wear a CPAP for Sleep Apnea,

and have been unable to wear it the last few days because of the cold.

So in all honesty the Goddess is not quite the vision of Lovliness

I was hoping to have looking back at me in the mirror today.

I pointed and said Hey Lady your looking pretty good,

but you have had better days,

Go figure!

.........

Other than that all is well,

other than the tornado that has gone through every room in the house

looking for Mr. Mustas manual.

It is not like I am getting company

and if I do maybe they will help me straighten up my house.

Do you wanna come over and help.

I will leave the front door open,

and there are some rice cakes by the vacumme.

Come on I know ya wanna.

Just wake me up when your done,

and we could have a visit.

......

I am going to rest,

I don't want to be too tired when you get here.

Ah, in my dreams.

Have a great day,

Cinner

Popcorn, Come Get Your Popcorn or Not.

I went to the movie Conviction,

which is definately a go see.

Hilary Swank was wonderful in it.

To believe without any doubt

can be very powerful.

...........

I passed up on Buttered Popcorn,

a huge Pop, offered nibs,

and was asked if I wanted Nachos.

I never touched a thing,

and I was proud of myself as I sat next to my sister.

........

It is so great to see and feel the changes,

I have to take a few days break

for some recharging,

I will be back very soon,

.......

Remember the harder you work at something,

the closer we get to what we want.

So lets all encourage one another.

Have Your Very Best Day Ever!

Cinner

Hey there, I have not forgotten any of you.

Hi Everyone,

just a quick update,

My younger sister is visiting with me.

We are having a wonderful time,

went out and about today for awhile,

it was beautiful here,

I did not even wear a jacket,

It was nice to have her come in and say

OMG, look at you, I can really tell.

Yesterday it happened with my SIL,

I had not seen her for about a month,

She was amazed. This sure helps me to keep going and sticking

with my new ways.

Yeah.

I apologize to you that I have not been buy to visit your blogs,

I have been taking an eclass and am finding their is some work there for me to do.

My morning time is spent on preparing food for the day, so I don't overeat.

So just bear with me and I will be buy to read up and catch up with you.

For now take care, and I will catch up with you as soon as my visit is over with 

my sister.

I hope you are having your best days ever,

Cinner

A Quick Update, Down Again, yeah.

Hello,

We had a great Thanksgiving,

and then we took a quick trip up to the mountains for three days.

It was beautiful, of course it always is.

Yesterday when we left there was snow,

you may want to check my other blog for pictures.

So we walked and walked up here,

I have to say from bench to bench,

Still having a bit of back trouble,

Also did very good with the eating,

we only ate out once

so that I would not be tempted off my new way of eating.

And it pays off big time.

I have lost another nine pounds since my last weigh in.

so down from 315 to 299 for a total of 16 pounds.

I am thrilled, and thrilled to be home

and will be paying you all a visit so I can catch up

with you and your blogs and your successes.

Take care for now,

Quick Update.

Hi everyone,

I am having some troubles with my computer,

so will be away from it for a few days.

please see my other blog today

listed on the sidebar

for a catchup

on what

has

been going on.

Take care.

Cinner

Gratitude

Thank you to everyone whom sent wishes about my back,

So here is a flower for you all to brighten your day.

Just like you brightened mine.

I wish I could say I was on the mend,

but I seem to be working in 4 hour rotations and as the painkiller

wears off then my back tightens up more.

I had a dentist appointment this am

that I cancelled as I just could not see myself being able to sit in the chair for too long.

Who wants me sitting in a chair with my mouth open going ahhh, going oohhhh, blah, blah, blah,

I think that could give a dentist a complex, but at least I would be giving him something else other than my

money!

So instead I had a quiet morning at home sipping my cupof coffee watching it rain outside,

We have had terrible fall weather, no flowers to look at because of the frost, just more and more clouds in the sky.

I have read a few of your blogs in envy over the heat you are having.

What I would give for just an hour sitting in the sun,

feeling the warmth on my body.

Right now that sounds like heaven to me.

So doctors orders are to take it very easy,

I am trying to walk, today is the first day without my cane for awhile,

so whoo hooo some progress yeah, backflip, cartwheel.

I really would if I could.

I know procrastination is not a form of exercise.

But stretching is and that is my mission for the week,

To stay active, to try to limber up,

to smile even when I want to cry,

to see the sun when I look at the clouds,

to be grateful for everything I have,

and to be grateful for everything I don't.

I think sometimes we forget the later,

Have a wonderful day!

Good News

We have had an extremely beautiful day here,

I got the best results at my doctors office,

and then my SIL and I went and sat down overlooking the city

and had a morning coffee,

It was beautiful and peaceful,

just what I needed after being a little stressed this past week.

Dylan has made his way out of the hospital,

which is pretty amazing for four days,

and now he will be going through extensive therapy

to regain the use of his hand,

he already has some feeling in two of the fingers,

so this is good.

Thanks to everyone whom has inquired about him,

and for the kind messages. they were really appreciated.

So that is all I have for today,

The sun is shining, my hubby just got home,

and we can still catch about an hour of sun.

Take care until tomorrow.

Beauty Surrounds Us.

I hope to soon be here,

in just a couple weeks,

Their are so many beautiful trails to walk on,

and things to see and do.

This is a part of us being kinder to ourselves,

realizing that we just need a few days away for just us.

..........

So this weekend I hope that you can find enough moments to make you smile,

and be kinder to you.

I look forward to reading next week about all your adventures.

I will not be visiting any blogs this weekend.

But will be by to visit on Monday,

Have the very Best of Days.